Its been an exact two weeks since my previous post and how ironic that this write-up is the extreme opposite of what i had written earlier on. In truth, everything hasnt been falling into place. Things have been turbulent both at the domestic front and work, im trying to reconcile how all these managed to happen in such coordinated fashion and sequence.
Firstly I want to thank God for my life and there must be a reason why he has allowed things to happen. These trials are really stretching me and sometimes my eye-sockets are really working over-time trying to support the amount of emotion that's locked within.
Having to be a pillar by default doesnt help when you've got no one else to turn to. I have tried to release all the thoughts and emotions but i guess this battle is long drawn and often i find myself in this all alone. Thankfully in this time God has granted me a friend that really empathises with my situation and he assured me of how the Lord has everything in his hands.
In times of turbulence on a plane, the air-masks would drop from the cabin top and seat-belt signs would be lighted up. Im still grasping for my very OWN mask to breathe..trying to ride through this time searching for my seat belts. Just like the passengers yearning to hear the captain's voice, i too want to hear the inner voice give me direction on how to get out of this turbulence.
I really dont know. Most of the things are really out of my hands. I can only pray and trust God that he will work things out for my good. and I do. I want to trust him. Lord enable me and help me to trust you more.
I've been singing this song alot for the past 2 weeks because it really speaks to me NOW.
Casting Crowns' : Praise you in this Storm
I was sure by now, God you would have reached down
and wiped our tears away, stepped in and saved the day.
Once again, I say 'Amen' and its still raining.
As the thunders roar, I barely hear you whisper through the rain " im with you"
As your mercy falls, I'll raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus: I'll praise you in this storm, I'll lift my hands, you are who you are
No matter where I am, every tear I've cried you hold in your hands.
You never left my side, though my heart is torn, I'll praise you in this storm.
I remember when i stumbled in the wind, you heard my cry you picked me up again.
My strength is almost gone, how can i carry on? If I cant find you?
As the thunders roar, I barely hear you whisper through the rain " im with you"
As your mercy falls, I'll raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus..
Lord, though my heart is torn... I will praise you in this storm.
